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Three years have now passed since you left our world.
Three years since we have been able to wrap our arms around you and give you a hug....
Three years since I stroked your face and head to help you relax...
Three years since since we've camped in hospitals for weeks....
Three years of missing your voice... How would you sound? What would you say?
Three years of talking to Dragonflies in our back yard every summer...
Three years of wishing you good night before I fall asleep...
Three years of wishing on every shooting star to bring you back to us...
Three years and you're still my Little Peanut...
Three years and you'll always be our oldest....
Three years too long...
Three years too raw...
Three years of missing you every day...
We love you so much.... come back to us some day!!!
Every December Sky - Beth Nielsen Chapman
Every December sky
Must lose its faith in leaves
And dream of the spring inside the trees.
How heavy the empty heart,
How light the heart that's full.
Sometimes I have to trust what I can't know
Sometimes I have to trust what I can't knowWe walk into Paradise;
The angels lend us shoes.
'Cause all that we own,
We'll come to lose,
And Heaven is not so far
Outside this womb of words.
With every rose that blooms
My soul is assured
It's just like a song I've known
Yet still unheard.And every leaf of fire lets go,
Melting in the arms of earth and snow.
And if I could hold you now,
You'd enter like a sigh.
You'd be the wind that blows
The answer to "why?"
You'd be the spring-filled trees
Of every December sky.
Oh! Dear Ben and Sara: I was really dreading reading this because I knew the tears would fall more than ever and the rawness of our beautiful Olivia's loss would literally hurt my heart! No, it isn't getting easier, in fact some days seem worse than ever!! Is it because we see our precious Amelia thriving and becoming a true individual, something Olivia was on her way too, but never made it! The 'what could have been' is excruciating to think of, my only consolation is that the reality of it all is that we know that Olivia's life was destined to be painful! In and out of hospitals; being prodded for the never ending blood draws, that were so painful for her; the surgeries and increasingly painful recoveries and everything else that comes with the serious condition that she had. I for one, am more than grateful that our Sweet Baby Doll no longer has to endure that, but it still leaves us deep in grief, missing her more than ever!! Love you both, Mum/Barbara xxx
ReplyDeleteEach time I see a dragon fly I think of Olivia and her family. I know I will forever whenever I see one anytime,anyplace.My thoughts are with you all today.
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